Meghan O'Gieblyn: Will and Attention, Gebunden

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In her exquisite memoir of secret drinking, fragile recovery, and the deep pull of religion, award winning essayist Meghan O'Gieblyn seeks to understand why it is so hard to sustain the difficult work of personal change.

After leaving evangelical Christianity in her early twenties, kicking an addiction, and building a life as a writer, Meghan O'Gieblyn was admired by her friends for having a strong will. Then, in her late-thirties, she began secretly attending Catholic mass and meeting with a priest to discuss conversion. After eleven years of sobriety, she began drinking again. Both returns --- to organized religion and to alcohol --- felt to her like a regression, a personal defeat. Knowledge and determination had proven useless when it came to her most vexing personal battles. She was forced to reckon with her inner doubleness, a self "who both wants and wants not to want," as she puts it.

In Will and Attention O'Gieblyn captures those perplexing days. Soon after her return to sobriety, she turned to a series of spiritual texts--- by Simone Weil, Iris Murdoch, the Desert Fathers---and began putting them in conversation with her life. She set out to find a spirituality that could meet her longings and prove capacious enough to hold the dark side of human nature. Beautifully written, intellectually sparkling, wryly funny, this memoir from a beloved essayist explores a fundamental question of being human: the mystifying nature of our power over ourselves.